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nowadays i keep having the same nightmare!! i keep dreaming that i lost my phone and i'm stranded somewhere i couldn't find or call anybody then i started crying till i wake up. lol.

i've got the world under my feet but the weight on my shoulder.

i cry easier nowadays, i feel like there are so many eyes watching my back. i thought i even cried in my dreams just now. i feel like i have so many responsibility and obligations. i've been waking up each morning with massive headaches. i want to do this, and worst is, i don't think anyone can understand.

so basically nowadays i just shop almost everyday alone. have you ever shopped so much that you went dizzy? HAHA but shopping really cures any kind of mental illness (if you have any) HAHA.

and i realized that i buy the same, if not similar, plain white tee each month! because they are either stretched or spoiled or torn or spilled on. HAHA

my girl noel was back after 10000000 years! damn! missed her so much.

some of the gifts i've received or junks that i got recently. my favourite is the color pen at the bottom. gotta agree that them japanese have the cutest things.

grace, this is the ring.

so all i do now is to visit mr chiang everyday at mount elizabeth lol babysit him and take him out for lunch, buy him $40 worth of magazines etc. he has 6 meals a day now. we'll see how much weight he's gonna gain after the stay.

but every moment spent together is bliss =D

i can kick him slap him punch him pinch him whack him and he doesn't get angry!

but i can't say the same thing 5 years down the road if i continue doing it. HAHAHA such is the cruelty of reality.

peace

Like the stars need the sky

Stripped away of all the things you can or will offer me, your love is the most genuine.

Never really felt this way about anyone else.



Gawd I'm becoming so cheesy can anyone just slap me already?

Today is probably like the worst day of my life ever. I had a huge fight with my brother. Not really like a face to face yelling and screaming fight but basically I just sent him the longest and most hurtful text ever ending with a "I think you don't respect me or my things just because I'm your little sister. I'm grown enough now, don't make me hate you." I actually feel kinda bad after awhile. Ever since I was young I never once dare to retaliate any thing my brother did. I'm always keeping silent even when I'm so mad. I respect him a lot as who he is to me but that doesn't mean I do not deserve a respect back equally in return.

People say the most spiteful thing when they're pissed. I just started calling mom and dad and cried like crazy. Even talking about it makes me kinda feel like crying again. But I must be stern! A mistake is a mistake and I shall be no push over. He must learn from it.


Yes I bear grudges and i bear them hard, so what?

I'm only as fucked up as everyone else.

Feels like I have so much to say but I just can't collect and organize my thoughts nicely. Does anyone still read my blog though? I hardly use my camera now. Shall work on it.



Peace

'I love you' in other words...

Your heart is my home.

You are a changed man. You will be a changed man. I trust you.

Because this shall be the last bit of trust left people have in you.

I wonder if a few years down the road, scratch that, or even just a few months down the road, will you still be tolerating and giving in to all my unreasonable nonsense or succumbing back to your old destructive self, ending up hurting everybody around you again.

As cheesy as it may sound, you said I'm your precious gem. Just so you know, you really do make me feel like one. Your little kisses told me so.

I wish you'd love me like this forever.

I could be so temperamental.

And I can foresee that in a minute you are gonna call me and start asking, "Is that blog entry about me? What do you mean little kisses? What little kisses?"

Silly you.

Side note, Gossip Girl Season 2 finale, anyone? Not enough Georgina Sparks in this season! But the ending did make me anticipate for season 3 more!!!

peace

care and concern comes genuinely from the bottom of one's heart.

and you don't even have it.

talk about love. i was such a non-believer in it. and i think i still am.

at times like this, only your trusty chivas and viceroy is your best friend.